http://www.stephenfry.com/forum/topic/stark-emptiness Just another bbPress community en-US Fri, 24 May 2013 17:19:28 +0000 http://bbpress.org/?v=1.0.2 q http://www.stephenfry.com/forum/search.php http://www.stephenfry.com/forum/topic/stark-emptiness#post-288777 Sat, 10 Nov 2012 19:10:11 +0000 ArleneA 288777@http://www.stephenfry.com/forum/ <p>It&#39;s been some time now since you left me once again.</p> <p>I wonder if you even care that I battle with my inner thoughts a little more every day?</p> <p>If I were to see you now though, I&#39;m not even sure what I would say.</p> <p>There are no words fitting for how I feel.</p> <p>I guess I was wrong in thinking we shared a bond; you know, something that felt real?</p> <p>You don&#39;t and never will trust me - that is the deal.</p> <p>I told myself I would not allow you to devour my emotions; yet you&#39;ve done it again.</p> <p>I so wanted to feel happiness; instead all I got was a double dose of even more pain.</p> <p>It&#39;s almost as though you are punishing me for being nothing but honest, trustworthy and true. Punished and tortured for a crime I did not commit.</p> <p>So needless to say you will be out there no doubt, having the time of your life. Out there with the elite; the best of the best.</p> <p>In contrast, my mind, body and soul have all but given up; seems now they only want to rest, rest, rest.</p> <p>Mornings are what I dread the most.</p> <p>I open my eyes and then oh God it hits me:</p> <p>the cold, bleak, dark and very very stark EMPTINESS.<br /> ***********************************************************************<br /> SOMEONE WILL NEED TO DEFINE THE MEANING OF TRUST TO ME;<br /> SOMEWHERE ALONG THE LINE I SEEM TO HAVE GOTTEN IT<br /> COMPLETELY WRONG.<br /> *********************************************************************** </p>