Hello everyone. I’m back in a more real guise and I am fine. I am recovering from abdominal surgery, which went well without complications. I had the time to read part of a really big, really good book in hospital – let‘s just say I am a closet neurologist. I have discovered that it is perfectly acceptable to delude oneself particularly if one realizes it at some point, and in the context of both hemispheres. That is, I usually know when I am making a big mistake, but part of my brain tells me full steam ahead is perfectly fine and it knows the steps… while another part of me groans inwardly and rolls its eyes. If any neurologists out there think I have misinterpreted the chapter, please … do tell!
Many times in my life I have known that I am approaching the dragon’s jaws whilst my confabulating neurons loosely congregated in my left hemisphere have gaily given me the go ahead and that everything is just fine and dandy. So, this last journey of self delusion (it wasn’t the first and probably won’t be the last) was just part and parcel really – but I have stopped punishing myself. I no longer mind or care about the various story/image projections that people toss around and toward me in every interaction of my life (although they are exasperating) I cannot change what people choose to see in me. My time in hospital was restful and enlightening. The really annoying nutcase in the bed opposite me taught me that however much of a nut job I think I am – there’s always a bigger one just round the corner.
So I am no longer Dandelion – he is a beautiful cat whom I adore. I am Mystic River and I don’t really care how anyone chooses to interpret that because the meaning is for me. At this moment it is who I am and I am proud of how far I have come. I might swirl past these banks from time to time, but at present there are greater tides affecting my journey, so I really don’t know where I will be from one day to the next. I wish you all well, much fun and happiness. 
There is always love.
