I'm feeling severely low at the moment. I felt it coming on last week, I just ignored it, and hoped it would go away, but it seems as every moment ticks by, I'm falling deeper, and deeper into this dark hole. I feel so strange, over emotional, I just want to cry, there's no reason. I just feel like breaking down. I can't concentrate, I can't read, draw, watch telly, do anything. Which is driving me mad because I'm just left with my own my thoughts. Everyone is irriating me, I don't want to be around people because I just find myself snapping. I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to die young, because I feel ill all the time, so I'm sure I have something wrong with me, but what's the point in going to the GP because they won't take me seriously. I've just come to the conclusion that I'm going to die, and achieve none of the things I want to in life. My appetite is completly gone, everytime I eat it makes me feel sick. I just feel so lost, and sad, and I don't know what to do.
Feeling Severely Low
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romanee |
Posted Mon Aug 29th, 2011 2:22am Post subject: Feeling Severely Low
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michael |
Posted Mon Aug 29th, 2011 2:23pm Post subject: Feeling Severely Low
Hi Romanee, i'm so sorry you are going through such a bad patch. please keep in mind that it can and will pass, eventually. i'm hearing from you that there IS a lot you want to do in life, and that you're worried this illness will wreck all that. depression does make it hard to do ANYthing. do you have any particular worries about the GP? Have you tried going before? "HELLO I'M TACTILE !" is an anagram of my name |
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Vampyros |
Posted Mon Aug 29th, 2011 3:17pm Post subject: Feeling Severely Low
Romanee sorry to hear this. Not the best at getting out of depressive states myself so not sure how great my advice will be. But if you can try not to isolate yourself, talk to people, in person or online, I have found it can sometimes just take one post to lift you up. I am getting great comments about the book - you were part of that and I sent you a copy yesterday. You are very talented, just know that this episode will end. Vx I think my multiple personalities have multiple personalities - makes for quite a party. "Books and friends should be few but good." "It is better to be in chains with friends , than to be in a garden with strangers." -Persian Proverb |
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romanee |
Posted Sun Sep 18th, 2011 6:26pm Post subject: Feeling Severely Low
Thankyou to the both of you for your comments. I am slowly but surely coming out of the darkness, and beginning to see light. I am planning on going to university next year to study English. Thankyou Vampyros for letting me be apart of that book, and the wonderful tribute that is, to such an obviously wonderful, and talented person that was Katy Sara, I only wish I would have known her. Amanda I hope you are keeping well, and that there is no black cloud. I would have posted back sooner but have been keeping a very low profile, but I feel myslef seeing light again. I plan on getting more active on this website, as I need more of a support system, and to talk to people who are in the same boat as myself. Thankyou both for your comments, much love, and hope you both keep well xx |
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Vampyros |
Posted Sun Sep 25th, 2011 8:28pm Post subject: Feeling Severely Low
I understand, only too well. Had a lot of Dark Clouds lately too. I hope you get your PC hacker problem sorted too. I am just deleting the error emails that I am getting. Hugs I think my multiple personalities have multiple personalities - makes for quite a party. "Books and friends should be few but good." "It is better to be in chains with friends , than to be in a garden with strangers." -Persian Proverb |
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PapaDiscorida |
Posted Thu Dec 1st, 2011 5:18pm Post subject: Feeling Severely Low
My problem at the moment is I am having difficulty recognising the difference between the manic an depressive episodes. It blurs into one long sense of "inhumanity" to me now. I had a moment today. When i recognised that i am sitting in a senior position in a company and from the time when i walked into the driveway of my neighbors, to when I hopped the fence and was at my back door I recognised that this sanity that others talk about occurs but there is demarcation for me. There probably iss for me now 4 states. Manic, Depressive, normal, other. I also suffer from epilepsy. Someone says in the doco when you see the angels all the pain and suffering is all well worth while, but for myself there is angles, devils, depression, mania and percception throughout that all of these dont exist, and there is existence any more. Of course buddhism is a logical philosophical choice. All linguistic models fail. Mania and depression that I suffer are moderate in comparison to a many manic depressives (my brother inlaw is manic depressive as was his mother and my mania is comparable to his only on a minor manic day. Depression though we have never compared). "We must relieve our minds of the terrible fate that awaits us" perhaps is the way around, "We must relieve our fates of that terrible mind that we construct". If you have cheese. Please send it to a PO box near you because alot of people like cheese. |
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marzgirl |
Posted Sat Dec 24th, 2011 11:21am Post subject: Feeling Severely Low
I have also been very low. With the exception of picking my daughter up from school, I have only ventured out of the house 3 times in a month. The only people who understand this are here. I am so tired of people saying "sometimes you have to force yourself" or "just pull yourself up by the boot straps". As if I am making a fucking choice. "Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that." |
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