I have been on a real downer for the last few days and it hit me hard.
It was the first dip for a while.
Now today, I feel well again.
Thing is, I don't know if I'm just OK, or if I'm 'going up' now.
How can you go from one day feeling like you don't give a stuff if you never wake up again in the morning, to feeling absolutely fine!?
In my 13 years as a nutter (affectionate term for myself) I have never come out of a depression this quickly before.
Should I ignore it and stop analysing?
I'm tired - a bit - and should go to bed. Meeting some friends in the morning, but part of me thinks - why bother?
I've been writing this weekend - all the bad stuff. Never before have I written so much in such a short time - I'm up to page 87 of an A5 book - done not a lot today but the rest was done since Saturday - WOW!
But now, for the first time ever - I feel as though I want to write positive things!!
Good things, with a hint of humour and madness - even though no one else is ever going to read it - at least not deliberately!
It's just thoughts and my take on things - nothing poetic or beautiful.
Oh, how I wish I could write.
Anyway, That's all for my ramblings.
Just a thanks to those of you have been lovely to me the last few days with messages or PMs - you know who you are!!