STEPHEN FRY

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Hiya Skylight,

Of course I remember you from being here a while back. Nice to hear from you, but sorry to hear it's because of difficult circumstances.

I also experienced what would be later identified as 'profound mental health problems' in my pre teen years.

The full range of what ' Inducible' wrote is very true though, I am especially aware of the dangers of how anti-depressants are seen to induce more suicidal impulses in teens than adults.

I was treated by tranquillisers in my early teen years ( circa 1970 - 74) - but so little was known about emotional and /or mental health problems as manifest in the young back then.

I do wish they would allow you at least a controlled program of mild tranquillisers to help you re-gain some perspective, ease your transit through the talking therapies and give at least some symptomatic relief until your are considered old enough to be treated by standard assessments and procedures. In truth though, I feel they should start the anti-depressants and do what they are employed to do - and that is closely monitor you /your reaction.

In summary, I would recommend you heed 'Inducibles' words, and meanwhile, you have my best wishes for a future positive interaction / result from the health service.

Warm regards,

F.F.

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I saw the psychologist and he is continuing the CBT for now.

I don't know what to do now. Sometimes it's hard to get out of bed and I am starting school again in almost 2 weeks. My concentration skills are non-existent and I don't think I can manage this. Last term I couldn't go in for more than 2/3 days a week and even then it was a huge strain. I am worse now so I dread to think what my attendance will be like.

Thanks everyone.

I'm 15. I think they're trying to avoid labelling me (although my GP did say I has severe depression ) the thing is, I can't wait until I'm older to do something else. It's hard to get out of bed some days and at school I find myself sitting and just staring into space. It's scary.

Couple of points:

Being 15 is hard for everyone (I hate this sentence but "you'll realize this as you get older". Seriously life never stays the same as long as you keep your perspective open. The world is huge, and there are so many people out there that are a lot like you) because you haven't explored yourself enough.

"just staring into space" does not have to be bad (how bad is the current education system... am I right? Huh? Huh?), I often enjoy that more than the other options (another discussion on Friends, really?!? (I haven't watched TV for some time (or recently had many discussions on TV shows)). And getting out of bed ... who enjoys that?

I think they are not avoiding labelling you, rather that you do not label yourself. So that you do not think things are the way they are because you are that way or the other (which can also lead to suicide, "realizing" you are stuck in a situation that is not of your choosing. Killing oneself is, to me, the ultimate control).

P.s. When thinking about anything I say remember that I am anti-medication (beyond self-medication (I'm not going to suggest the use of the "drug" they make rope from because that is most likely illegal) and sometimes thought of as a arrogant bastard (I try to embrace my differences. I mean, who want's to be normal?). There will always be people out there that judge you.

Of course your mum won't leave you alone. It's the natural reaction of any parent who finds their offspring trying to kill themselves. It's called caring and giving a damn.

You can last another day and you will do it because I want you to reply more on this thread and talk more about you and your feelings. People here will listen to you.