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cresson


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Posted Thu Nov 12th, 2009 12:40pm Post subject: I wrote this poem - it's not very good, but it's mine, and it's meaningful to me

Mixed Emotions

You looked up and said “I love you my friend”.
Your stare became vacant
and that was the end.
You just passed away,
with no screaming,
no cries.
You couldn’t even see I had tears in my eyes.

The fact that I loved you was never in doubt
But no one else knew as I hadn’t ‘come out’
You knew that I worried
about just holding hands
But you understood
and you made no demands.

I wonder if you knew that our bond was strong?
God! I wanted to cry “This is unfair, and wrong!”
But with nurses around us
I hadn’t quite dared.
And so,
missed the chance,
to tell you I cared.

I wanted to tell you the things that I’d said
in the rows that we’d had
while you lay
in your bed,
were just words of temper, frustration, and pain,
said once
then, never repeated again.

I’d meant to explain that the day I’d stormed out,
I thought I was right,
of that
there’s no doubt.
At the time I’d said sorry, but
that’s never enough –
I’d never said why – I was trying to be tough.

I wanted to tell you my guilt, and my hate
- for this bloody illness –
but now it’s too late!
I saw the Grim Reaper approach with his scythe
And I begged for your death,
yet,
I prayed for your life.

written by Cresson
february 1993 (verse 2 added in Sept 2004)

It is an interesting question how far men would retain their relative rank if they were divested of their clothes. - Thoreau

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M1ssCassidy


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Posted Sat Nov 14th, 2009 7:19am Post subject: I wrote this poem - it's not very good, but it's mine, and it's meaningful to me

This is a beautiful work that touches my heart. Thank you for sharing.

Thank you Statute of Anne!

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cresson


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Posted Thu Nov 19th, 2009 12:55am Post subject: I wrote this poem - it's not very good, but it's mine, and it's meaningful to me

M1ssCassidy said:
This is a beautiful work that touches my heart. Thank you for sharing.

Thank you for your kind words.

It is an interesting question how far men would retain their relative rank if they were divested of their clothes. - Thoreau

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