Hello, this is an "I need your experiences, please" thread.
The skinny is, I can't take antidepressants because every time I have tried, even with a mood stabiliser, they trigger dysphoric mania.
The medication I take now isn't helping a depression that I am slipping into and which is getting deeper.
I've discussed therapy with my CPN and I am wondering- can it only be helpful to a degree? I have always felt that largely, my swings in mood are very biological. They come from nowhere and I'm not *triggered* by things, even though I've had many traumatic experiences such as recently losing a best friend to suicide.
Whereas I want therapy to help me cope with these events, and with the actual realities of having severe manic depression (as refered to by doctors, nurses and everyone and by me if I'm honest), I don't know how helpful it will be regarding the kinds of biological depressive swings that I feel I experience.
Any advice on this?
I don't take medications because in my younger days (a long, long time ago ) I had a very bad experience with Lithium.
I also worry about having such powerful drugs in the house with young children.
Anyway, I don't know whether my bipolar is particularly mild but I manage fairly well without them.
I also use the flower remedies (Australian Bush Flower) which i get from my homeopath but I'm in the middle of an experiment of my own with regards those.
Basically I gave up the homeopathic pills when it was pointed out to me that they are diluted so much that not a single molecule of the original substance is actually present in the pills. Consequently I stopped taking anything from my homeopath, including the flower essences and noticed the difference; I wasn't coping.
Then I thought to myself; the flower essences are a completely different thing to the pills, they are not diluted and instead of a water base, they are made with alcohol. I started to take just the essences again.
Then I got to thinking whether it was the extracts from the flowers that was having an effect or the small amount of alcohol, after all the mood altering properties of alcohol are very well known. About the same time I read that caffeine although it is essentially a stimulant, in small amounts can calm down a hyperactive child when combined with protein. (That's how ritalin works too).
So I filled one of my old dropper bottles with whisky which tastes very similar and mixed up the bottles so that I wouldn't know which I was taking every morning and afternoon.
It's been a couple of months now and I'm still coping reasonably well. I still have the ups and downs and other symptoms besides but they are not debilitating which means that overall I still have reasonable control, which I think is the big thing!
I also take Omega capsules and watch my diet. Plenty of water, not too many refined carbs, I don't use alcohol anymore (at least not more than one or two units a week) and take a piece of very dark chocolate when i feel the need, whether it's the flavanols(or is it flavanoids
) or psychological I'm still not sure but it helps.
I recently got to going to MIND once a week and that helped tremendously because she helped me to break out of what I call the trigger trap. That's when I actually trigger myself by anticipating my mood changes and assuming that it will be too much to cope with.