--I spend hours researching random crap on the internet
--I drink a lot or take tons of clonazapam and percocets
--INSOMNIA
--crazy nightmares when I do sleep
--I get really horny and say innappropriately sexual things to my friends like: "I could give you a blowjob right now" or "hey, let's have really bad post-breakup sex!" Luckily I don't often act on these suggestions.
--I talk too fast and get too many ideas and try to start 6 million art projects, getting about 1/4 of the through them before I feel too irritable to continue.
--I berate people for not doing things the way I like them.
--I get sensitive to sounds and textures to the point of wishing I had a sensory deprivation chamber.
I don't enjoy my mania at all. It makes me feel out of control and I hate that. I don't get that euphoric thing or any of the positive side effects, I'm just anxious, horny, and pissed off, or completely inaccessable and in my own world.


