given that the person has to cope with the vagaries of bp neverthe less it is still unrealistic to say " i wont be seeing that psychiatrist again" when the self same person is asking/reqiring/needing the thing the psychiatrist has. Thats the blog 3 days ago. simply pointing out that contradiction isn't much to do with counselling etc.
Argh, I'm so confused! I didn't once mention not seeing a psychiatrist! I said I'm no longer seeing the psychotherapist who has nothing to do with the mental health trust, it's a young person's charity. The reason I'm not seeing her is because my appointments are at 7pm on a Monday and now I am working that time. She said herself to come back to me when I'm ready as she felt we were going nowhere at the moment because I clam up at mention of my dad.
And yes I moan. The SERVICES ARE INADEQUATE. Up and down the country, people will tell you this. I am not the only one. If people don't protest, nothing changes!
so in the end i say rather bluntly ' look if you want something take it, or stop wasting everybody's compassion and concern in the masquerade of being some kind of social commentary - although we all agree that the blog is more than just that. but in terms of health issues its fundamentally misleading to state that healt care options are missing when in fact they are not, by her own evidence. they may not be quite what she wants, but they are there.
AS for that, get bent. I never said anything was missing- I said it was inadequate. It is inadequate to be forced to wait months for a psychiatric appointment when young trainee psychiatrists are not getting jobs. Medications are hardcore and they need close monitoring. I have not had a Lithium level blood test in four months, have still not had a Depakote check even though I should have done by now. My next appointment is in June. No one is checking on how the hell things are working. The CPN doesn't contact me and is unreachable when I try to contact her. No one has yet taken me off the rapid-cycling inducing antidepressants I am on, so I had to do it myself. I am having insane insomnia and no-one is helping me when I mention it.
I am not unique here. And I resent the implication that I and other people should accept this treatment when it could be better. Just because we're not being chucked in asylums anymore doesn't mean there have been amazing advances in the mental health service. There is still no open discourse and people still constantly imply we should be ashamed of our illnesses. Doctors don't take us seriously, appointments are not made, adverse physical side effects (I have gained 4 stone now and am risking diabetes) are not taken seriously.
It's not good enough.
I also know I can alter my responses to my mood changes but sometimes, in stressful periods, it's simply not possible. I am only human, I am only young and I am doing the best I can with the minimal personal support.
And Crazy is right about the tone. It was insulting. As my sister's comment after you proved. You have been kind and helpful but that was hurtful in tone.