Does anyone know when to tell if your paranoia is psychosis?
I ask this because with mania it would likely be severe, but with hypomania or depression it could be more like Psychotic depression. In psychotic depression, you're AWARE that your delusions or hallucinations are just that, but they still effect your behaviour.
I'm not wrapping things in tin foil yet, but I am definitely paranoid, and wondering when I should tell my Drs.
It's hard to find research on it so maybe someone with similar experiences could help?
I'm suspecious that everything I say could be used against me. I currently have no income; I quit uni on health and finantial grounds and have no family support. I need benefits but need help filling it out and am worried every person I speak to will somehow be assessing me for my eligibility so when they ask me how I managed to buy food if I have no money or go out, or something, I get worried and feel like I'm stuck.
I also have this weird thing where I think if I'm takling to someone online, it might be someone else using their account instead. That isn't weird, I know, but I get it in REAL LIFE too. I think someone like my sister is actually a uni friend she may or may not know. If I ask them both the same sort of question and they respond the same way I feel its more true. Now I am always aware it makes no sense, sometimes its people of different races, sexes, ages. But it doesn't matter, and the fact is because of the delusion, I'm anxious and might be ca\reful not to talk to the people I'm worried about in that sense as much as I would before.
So my delusions make me anxious and change my behaviour but aren't putting me in immediate danger right now.
Well it might if I stop trusting my Drs. I've had times during severe depression where I think they're either giving me a placebo or poison and I stop going to the Drs or taking the meds. =/
I'm only being treated with anti-depressants, no mood stabilisers. My mood isn't fluctuating too much I don't think. It's moving around a little, but I'm not feeling worn out by the changes which is normally what happens when it rapidly cycles and I haven't had a nice high in ages. I'm more energetic on my new dose but wouldn't say I'm getting higher or anything.