Hello everyone,
Firstly, I apologise for being absent from the forum for some time only to return with a rather unpleasant query. Secondly, I'd like to stress that the events I'm about to describe were not a suicide attempt; I'm not exactly sure what they were, but likely I thought it simply might be 'fun'.
At close to about 28 hours ago, I took an overdose of the propranolol which I've barely touched since it was prescribed to me - I'm not sure how much, but I think it was around 15 80mg tablets. In addition to this I doubled up my citalopram (to 120 mg) and was quite heavily drunk on a mixture of things.
I fell asleep shortly afterwards - survived, obviously - and woke up the next morning in fairly jovial spirits. When I got up and went to the shops, however, that changed. I was basically stoned - sluggish, slurring and barely capable of thinking. I crashed when we got back and spent the remainder of the day feeling nauseous, panicky and feverish, and experiencing the 'dying' sensations I don't normally get from hangover-induced anxiety. I tried to make myself throw up, couldn't, and didn't feel up to eating anything until much later in the evening, when I managed a fairly large roast. After this I felt a mite better, and had a decent night's sleep.
This morning I felt considerably better, but still felt a twinge of anxiety and sweaty not-niceness earlier on which I think is probably related to the *knowledge* that there are still some chemicals in me, rather than the *fact* that there are still chemicals in me.
My question is as follows: can I assume that the worst has now passed? I am desperately disinclined to go to A&E or even my doctor, as this would probably entail my girlfriend finding out that I overdosed, and I definitely do not want to burden her with that information, particularly a few short days until we leave to spend Christmas with our respective families.
I shall apologise again, if only because catharsis relies on apologising to someone.
Many thanks for your time and knowledge.
I'm a histrionic, holistic, herculean halibut.
