Haven't posted on this before because I've been trying to work out what to say. Please bear with me (I mean well...)
I don't think you are being selfish - but perhaps you didn't realise how much the thought of you going through with your plans could upset a group of people who are. after all, complete strangers. Since I first read of your intentions I have been torn between the immediate impulse to say "Please don't do it" and the feeling that yes, it is your life, and your decision. For different reasons I do understand how it feels to have no other options.
Here's hoping your ray of light sticks around.
"If you are dirty, insignificant and unloved then rats are the ultimate role model" - Banksy


