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Sherlock221
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Posted Wed Jan 13th, 2010 4:16pm Post subject: Stuck and lost
Hello,
I went to see my Dr as I felt down and after speaking to me he suggested that I might have CT so he referred me on. I went for an appointment with a psychiatric nurse who concurred but said I needed to see a proper psychiatrist.
I went to the first appointment but the proper psychiatrist wasn't there so someone filled in and took notes. These were passed on to the Dr. I went back to see the Dr today thinking I was going to have sometime to talk to him properly but there were three people in the room and I didn't feel able to express everything that I had planned to say to him when I got the chance.
They kept asking me how "happy" or "sad" I was at a certain point in time and I have a pretty shit memory at the best of times so I found if it difficult to answer.
The upshot was that they didn't believe that I have CT. I disagree completely as I've been reading this forum all the time since it was first suggested a few months back. Some of the experiences people have had are a mirror image of my life since I was a teenager; the half completed projects, relationships begun but then dashed by lack of maintenance, the general failure and self recrimination occassionally peppered with successes that I still use against myself to create further guilt to fuel my self loathing.
They didn't even mention the general suicidal thoughts that I'd had in the past or the previous feelings of godlike invulnerability that I'd had over last summer where I convinced myself that I'd discovered some sort of universal key to happiness that others were searching for. Coming down from that gave me a sense of profound loss from which I am still not fully recovered.
We didn't even really discuss the ongoing drug and alcohol abuse that I have indulged in for most of my life. The whole experience has left me feeling a bit like a whinger. Like I've just been told to "cheer up".
I've got to go back to the nurse so I'll explain this to him and see what he says. Can anyone else recommend any other action I should take to be re-diagnosed?
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michael
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Posted Wed Jan 13th, 2010 5:06pm Post subject: Stuck and lost
hi sherlock!
i will come back and post more, right now i have a question
what is CT?
"HELLO I'M TACTILE !" is an anagram of my name
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katysara
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Posted Thu Jan 14th, 2010 12:15am Post subject: Stuck and lost
cyclothymia perhaps? 
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Sherlock221
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Posted Thu Jan 14th, 2010 8:42am Post subject: Stuck and lost
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michael
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Posted Thu Jan 14th, 2010 4:41pm Post subject: Stuck and lost
oh, duh!
Katy, yous is a geniuz.
sorry sherlock!
yes talking to the nurse about it sounds like a great idea! it sounds like you have a good relationship with the nurse.
you feel down right now, right? do you have suicidal feelings now, or was that a past symptom? have any of the people you've talked to taken steps with you to help your current symptoms of depression?
how is that coming along?
if the diagnosis part isn't coming along as you hoped, but your symptoms are getting treated successfully, that's still good.
did the psych doc give you any other diagnosis? or just say you were fine? ( i definitely understand your frustration!  )
i should tell you i'm an american, so i don't know much about UK healthcare... including terms used, etc, lol. i'm also frequently uninsured so even my experience with the whole treatment process here is different than others! but there's lots of UK folks here too and together we'll help you sort this out.
"HELLO I'M TACTILE !" is an anagram of my name
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craigm
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Posted Wed Jan 27th, 2010 2:32pm Post subject: Stuck and lost
hi
funny I've had similar experiences.... the most recent where I actually did make a kind of half arsed suicide attempt and they drugged me then discharged me.... I've been feeling great, got into yoga, went off my meds feeling like yoga was the key ... now i'm starting to slide again....
my partner just thinks i need some cardio vascular and the mental health unit just think I'm a drunk
like you I think I'm Cyclothymic, and I think it's a hard one to nab because it's not as 'extreme' as BP1 - but it's chronic, meaning you can never adjust to 'normal' because sooner or later you are belted by another shitty come down.
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