STEPHEN FRY

Oh trust me, i get it, i only wish i'd had longer to write it

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ksx

Interesting,(to me at least), a few months ago, after trying to kill myself i sat in front of six strangers, Psychiatrists and nurses etc, on a Psyc ward, adamant that i wasn't depressed.

I've just read back over all my entries...

Amazing how writing things down can give you a whole different perspective of yourself. Looking back over the past years now, and wondering at which point I became so self consumed???

I used to really love living alone, but i guess at some point i took being alone too far. Stopped socialising, became more and more isolated so i could be alone with my eating disorder.

I guess its very easy to loose sight of yourself that way.

C

Hi Michael,

its exactly like a journal with replies isn't it, replies from all over the world too, which makes it so much more interesting.

Hows things today? Well i've been arguing with myself all day about forcing myself to go and visit a doctor and ask for some anti depressants... arguing is at least a step in the right direction as i wouldn't have considered it for a second a couple of weeks ago!

I'm not sure if i've ever experienced a giant ice storm!!! Sounds very exciting... Where abouts are you?

Apparently we can expect more snow in the u.k shortly which is bad, especially if its the wrong kind of snow!!! It seems in this country if the snow is too fluffy or something, the whole place comes to a stand still, no transport, no rubbish collection and rediculous media coverage of 'the big freeze.' 'Worst snow storms in 800 years!' Or some crap. It's so silly, for the love of god, it's just a little bit of snow!!!

I wish i had relatives back in Oz, i love summer!

Take care in that ice storm

C

I have indeed moseyed around and found lots of entertaining threads. My head's too foggy right now to contribute anything remotely intelligent or witty, but i am enjoying reading everything.

Oklahoma, i've never met anyone from there! I may be very misguided and behind the times but i don't imagine people to be the most open minded in those parts??? How do you go getting support for your BP? Is it something you can talk openly about with people?

Sounds like you have a very supportive and wise girlfriend though...

C

Hi KS

The Zoloft was over ten years ago, way before i had an ED

I'll keep up the argument and see what happens. Perhaps i'll go just to shut myself up.

C x

crystalize said:
I have indeed moseyed around and found lots of entertaining threads. My head's too foggy right now to contribute anything remotely intelligent or witty, but i am enjoying reading everything.

Oklahoma, i've never met anyone from there! I may be very misguided and behind the times but i don't imagine people to be the most open minded in those parts??? How do you go getting support for your BP? Is it something you can talk openly about with people?

Sounds like you have a very supportive and wise girlfriend though...

C

it's pretty conservative here, yeah! i lived away for several years and moved back. there are plenty of openminded folks to hang out with, once you find them... openminded southerners and cowboys are some of the most-fun folks you'll ever meet. they're just outnumbered when we vote. by a lot. lol.

i don't have bipolar, i'm diagnosed with severe depression. i identify with the folks on here a lot though... esp since i had psychosis. and i had lots of rapid, impulsive thoughts during my depression, so when folks on here describe mixed states, i can kinda empathize. folks here seem to "get" me.

but anyways, so far in my experience, support for mental illness sufferers in the US is like any other health situation: it depends on how much money you have. if you can pay for insurance that covers it, or you can pay for it out of pocket, then it's there... for myself, i was saved by free clinics for the uninsured.

so how's the arguing been going?

crystalize said:
Hey Michael, Money, money, money hey

So sorry, i'm a knob, i've been reading some of the other threads over the weekend and realized you've already answered most of those questions elsewhere...

As to the arguing with myself, i bit the bullet and saw a G.P this morning. I explained i'd tried Zoloft years ago and felt so bad i stopped taking it etc.

Anyway, she prescribed sertraline, which she said may have the same side affects but that they usually subside after a couple of weeks. I discovered after looking it up on the net when i got home, that Sertraline is another name for Zoloft!!!

I'm actually feeling really, really weird, tense, shaking hands and nauseous already... It was a huge mission to concentrate on writing these few lines!

Not sure if i'll last the 2 weeks

that sounds... strange!! i looked it up, you're right, it's just another trade name!

did you tell her about your eating disorder?

did you already fill the prescription?

and don't feel like a knob, i don't read all the posts, i just can't keep up like that